Be A Decent Human Fucking Being

                As I have previously stated when talking about Jonah Mowry, I hate it when people only take notice of one person being bullied or hurt in any way shape or form when one person make national coverage. THIS IS RIDICULOUS !!!!! I have come across this at least twice since I started college this semester and it is driving me absolutely nuts. The first off is National Suicide Awareness Day and when Amanda Todd committed suicide. Just to point out right now SOMEONE SHOULDN’T HAVE TO DIE FOR THE NATION TO TAKE NOTICE!!

                When it comes to National Suicide Awareness Day which was in September, everyone writes the word ‘love’ on their arms to signify that they support those affected by suicide. I am all for this concept of supporting people who have contemplating suicide or who have been affected by suicide. However, I saw some girls on my Facebook who had made their profile pictures the pictures of the writing on their arms and I became angry.

                These girls, who shall remain nameless, are spending one day of the year with the word love of their arms because they like to think they make a difference. The problem with this is that the other 364 days in the year these are the girls who are mean to everyone, who walk around like they are above everyone else for whatever reason.  I hate these people because if you really want to make a difference in the life of someone contemplating suicide don’t sit and judge everyone, don’t be a bitch to everyone.  Seriously, it doesn’t take a lot to be a decent human being, all it takes it just the smallest amount of work from you. In all reality, all you need to do is live your life and not be mean. I’m not even saying you have to be super nice, just don’t be a dick. It’s not that hard, I promise.

                As I have previously stated, I haven’t always been the nicest person around, occasionally I can be a big old bitch but it is my sincerest hope that people in my life realize, I have only ever went out with the intent to hurt someone two times in my life, and that the rest of the time when I’m being a bitch, it’s never meant to hurt you and normally I’m just being sarcastic or trying to deal with my own feelings, because that is something I am terrible at. I apologize to anyone who I have ever hurt, because I know what it’s like to get hurt by my peers and it sucks, so I am truly sorry if I have ever done that to someone.  But I can also say, as someone who has thought about and tried to commit suicide that all it would have taken for me to change my mind was hearing from someone that they cared about me. That was all I needed and I didn’t get that at the time when I needed it. Luckily for me, I stopped myself and there hasn’t been a day since that I have regretted my decision to continue my life. But seriously, how hard is it to just text/Facebook/call someone who seems to be having a bad day and tell them that you care, to listen to them, to just make sure they are ok. It’s not difficult.

                Next point, Amanda Todd, a 15 year old girl who was bullied for a mistake she made when she was younger and this bulling lead to her eventual suicide. Just like Jonah Mowry, I am not in any way trying to be disrespect to this girl’s memory and my thoughts go out to her family. However, all of these people are now coming out in support of this girl. Where was this when she was alive? She had posted a YouTube video telling her story, but nobody seemed to do anything for her until she was dead.

                What does that say about us as a society, that the people in her life, the kids at her school, were willing to persecute this girl for one mistake she made as a kid? Seriously think about it. As I previously stated it doesn’t take much to be a decent human being, but if there had just been one kid, one parent, one something that would have been willing to be a little bit more than a decent human being, it could have saved this girl’s life.  But no, everyone is so wrapped up in their own little world, that they refuse to take notice until she died, that is pathetic in my eyes and honestly makes me disappointed in society.

                Now I am not saying I am perfect, or that I am more than a decent person 100% of the time, but now a days, I would never go out with the intent to hurt someone and I hope that I can teach that decency to my own children when I have them, I hope you will do the same. I also challenge you to go out and just smile in acknowledgement of other people, just be nice. I know you have your own problems and concerns, and you may be stressed beyond belief, but just flash a smile to someone while you’re walking to work, or on your morning jog or in class. If nothing else, studies show that if you force yourself to smile, it is more likely that you will feel a little bit happier. So it’s a win-win situation that takes like zero effort from you. If you seriously can’t do even that, just go out and don’t be a dick for an entire day, don’t say anything mean to anyone and just be passive, even that would be better then hurting someone else.

My Generation

              Before we start, I want to tell you right now this probably has nothing to do with what you think it does. That being said, let’s talk about My Generation, the Musical Concert event that was put on as the Spring Show in March of 2012 by The University of North Dakota’s Theatre Department. If I had to compare this to something it would probably be North Dakota’s version of Glee, part of me wants to leave it at that, but of course the other more dominating part of me is going to tell you more.

                I honestly thought that it was actually a really good production overall. There was a group of about 16 girls and boys helped build the show on the songs that the director, Emily Cherry, choose. They did songs from all sorts of genres, the following be a list of songs that they did (as far as I can remember)

1. Tonight’s Gonna Be a Good Night

2. Soul Sister/No One Mash-up

3. The Lazy Song

4. Cowboy Casanova

5. Sexy and I Know It

6. Facebook Song

7. Gravity

8. We Are Young

9. 21 Guns

10. Set Fire to The Rain

11. Born This Way

12. The Song of Purple Summer

13. Stereo Hearts

14. Not Over You

                These songs are not in order but I’ll give you the overview on my opinion on them. First off my favorite song was probably 21 Guns. It had this intense performance that just really went with the lyrics and it was just awesome basically. Tonight’s Gonna Be a Good Night, it was a good song, but I didn’t really like the choreography to it but it wasn’t bad once the entire cast was in it together. We Are Young was pretty awesome, my only critique would be that it almost seemed too staged but it was good. Born This Way was the finale and it was pretty awesome, they went full Gaga and got some pretty crazy costumes going and everything so that was all pretty cool and Stereo Hearts was intense because they stomped the yard in the choreography which was awesome! I think they sped it up too much to go with the stomping but the guy who was rapping along with it couldn’t quite keep up, so if I would have suggested slowing it down just a smidge. The song of Purple Summer was a fantastic song, I think it has a great message and it was really intense and just well done.

                All of those songs were done with the entire singing and on stage. The Solos were Facebook Song, which is from YouTube and it was good, but I think that they were trying too hard to add more of an internet aspect and that is why this song got added and I wasn’t an overall fan of it. Gravity was absolutely amazing, it was sung by Daniella Lima (sweetest girl I have ever met!) and along with the song they had two dancers dancing along to it and it was just an overall beautiful song that I loved watching the performance of. Set Fire to the Rain was such an intense song, I think it was almost too intense, I liked it and thought it went well, but I think the singer was trying too hard to add intense emotions to it.  Then Not over you was a duet that I thought was interesting, I liked the song overall but I didn’t like how they made up this story to go along with it. It was the only song that made me feel like I was in a theatre watching a musical and I just didn’t think the story they put behind it fit with the show.

                Each gender had its own song, the females going for Cowboy Casanova and I think this one of those songs where they were once again trying to hard add variety to the show by putting in country. I also think that it should have been more of a female empowering song like the males got but it was still about this guy that screwed them all over (at least that’s what I got out of it). The Males tapped Sexy and I Know it for their number and it was overall really funny. I think they did a really good job, I had a hard time taking some of it seriously because I know the guys in the show and it was weird watching them pelvic thrust and stick their asses up and down in the air but whatever, it was funny. It was probably one of the most memorable moments in the show because it was a moment when they boys brought a girl up from the audience and interacted her in the show and that was super awesome (I got to do it for one of the tech nightsJ).

                Soul Sister/No One Mash-Up was done at the beginning of the show as a duet and I’ll just say I wasn’t a fan, I think if that song had to be added, I would have personally used different people. I think they tried too hard for ‘sexy’ and the two people they had just looked awkward together. The Lazy Song was a trio of boys, I only think of the voices actually fit with the song and the other two just threw it off and made it sound bad, I wasn’t a fan. Out of all the performances that was probably my least favorite.

                As much as I hate to say it, I think that I could definitely tell who the director’s favorites were, they got the most stage time and I’m not saying they aren’t talented but I think some of the cast members kind of got the shit end of the stick when it comes to stage time. And maybe it wasn’t a matter of favorites, maybe it was a matter of a talent, I however think that each cast member should have been featured more evenly.

                Overall I thought the performances were lovely, I saw it multiple times so it was good. It is currently being held in consideration for performance at the Kennedy Center American Collegiate Theatre Festival 2013. Part of me hopes it doesn’t go, that isn’t because it wasn’t a great show, I don’t want to have to cut my Christmas Break short to come back and work on this show some more. Yep, I’ll be selfish about it, I only get so much time during the school year to spend with my family and friends back home, I don’t need any less. However, I won’t have to cross that bridge till at least December so baby steps.

                I hope you guys enjoyed my review and stayed tuned for all the posts that I have coming. Feel free to share my blog and comment or let me know what you think through Twitter or whatever. Have a fantabulous day!

Life and Other Drugs

Yep! As you can now officially tell, I’m ALIVE!! I won’t to start off this by telling you all that I am extremely sorry I stopped updating after Spring Break last year, but life got crazy and busy and I didn’t really have anything to say. However, here are a few updates for the sake of updates but I do have a couple different things written and that are being written so that I can stay active.

First off, I FINISHED MY FIRST YEAR A UND!!! Yea, that’s right, I made it through a very rough freshman year in college and I am now in the middle of my first semester of my sophomore year which is almost turning out a little interesting (for lack of a better term) then last year, but we’ll see I still got a semester and a half before I see the outcome.  

My previous semester at UND ended on a high note, it seemed that the closer and close it got to summer the better and better my year got. Me and my roommate ended up having another girl sleep on our futon for the last couple of weeks of the semester but the three of us had some awesome late night talks that I seriously miss. I think it was just an overall great year at UND, there are definitely some individual things that I wish I could change but as a whole I think it turned out pretty awesomely. It definitely helped me change for the better personally and it made me take some huge steps that I always thought I wouldn’t take, but I did it and it turned out to be pretty awesome.

The summer of 2012 wasn’t as amazing as I had originally hoped it would be, it had its awesome moments but it didn’t turn out how I wanted it to, but nothing ever does so whatever. I spent the majority of my summer working at my local Wal-Mart, which sucked ass! It wasn’t the work itself that was hard or even the people I worked with, it was the costumers who for the most part just sucked and made me honestly hate my life. I got so depressed and exhausted that at one point I honestly just broke down crying in the middle of my shift once and that kind of thing NEVER happens so it sucked. I also spent the first half of my summer working on a play called The Curious Savage (one of my posts will be about this soon).  The second half of my summer got a little better than the first half but it still wasn’t really what I wanted. Mid-July I actually played in a co-ed softball tournament for one of my friends’ team and although we lost pretty much every game I think, I still had a good time. I didn’t really know anybody on the team except for my friend, but I forgot how much I LOVE playing softball, and how much I suck at batting slow-pitch, but we’ll get there probably in another post too. This inspired me to take on another softball tournament in August which was super fun because my team was kind of awesome. Along with that I got to run/direct a children’s theatre camp through the local community theatre in my hometown which was awesome. Then there was the End of Summer Awesomeness, which will be getting its own post as well so more to come.

Then it was back to North Dakota to start off my second year in College which, like I said, has been interesting and I think it is going to continue to get interesting as well. So I’ll keep you posted on that.

I feel bad that I haven’t been updating as much as I should, after updating you can tell that it isn’t like my life is super busy or anything. I just loose motivation easily so I hope you’ll bear with me here as I update and backtrack on my life. Along with my life stories, I also have some rants and other things that I will be sharing soon because I never seem to have a loss for words in most situations. So thanks for sticking with me and I hope I don’t disappoint my readers.

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