Ok, So for my first actual post I wanted to share my excitemnt. I am so completely stoked to be home. As i said in my last post, I went to North Dakota in August and it is now November, I havent seen any of my family members since August 20, 2011. Now that may not seem like a super long time, but I am so close to my family that it has been soooo hard being away from them. Unlike some people I go to school with, such as most of the people who live on my floor, I'm not from Minnesota or North Dakota, I am from Monatan, a town that is a nice long 12 hour drive from my college. So I can't go home every other weekend like some people who shall remain nameless. Luckily though, I finally get to go home next week.
One week from today I will be getting ready to embark on my first ever train ride to make the long trek back home for Thanksgiving. Basically, next week is gonna be one the best weeks I have had since I came to UND and I can't decide whether this is a positive thing or not.
I feel like the last three months have changed me so much. All my life, I have always been in this one category with people. Most people i knew/know thought i was super cool but, I always felt that a lot of people were to afraid of me to be my actual friend. This is obviously no ones fault but my own, but this fact doesn't make it suck any less.
Not to mention, because of some things that happened in my past, I have developed social anxiety. Imagine this scinario, someone with social anxiety going to a college thats bigger then the town she grew up in...yea, welcome to my challenge.
Luckily for me my roommate, Ashley is super outgoing, and really nice. I honestly think that this entire college thing would have been 10 times harder for me had I been given a different roommate. She is kind of the complete opposite of me. She is really girly, and wants to work with kids in the medical field one day where as I am going to be an actress and my testostrone levels are probably kind of high compared to other girls. But she has really helped me break out of my shell this and get at least a little more invovled.
A word of advice though, to all those college freshman out there or high school seniors, don't let your roommate force you to do anything that you don't want to do.
But Ashley has been really great at including me and I like to think that the friends she brought over from her hometown to college with her, have become my friends as well. Living with her has defintely been an eye opening experience.
Being such a close family, it has been super tough being away from my sisters and mom But now I get to go home! It has been hard because at least once a month my friends all get to go home and then there is me, just stuck in the dorms all by my lonsome. granted sometimes it has been really nice and relaxing to get a break from all the craziness that is dorm life. Sometimes, when enough people are around, it is really fun even though people are gone, it just kind of depends.
What gets really annoying are the people who get to go home fairly often then they come back and complain about missing their families. My thoughts: FUCK YOU! I haven't seen my family since school started, and my niece was just born, haven't even got to meet her yet! So shut the fuck up because at least you just got to see your family. And quit fuckin bitching about because you'll probably see your family again before me...
But not this time. I am so excited that I get to meet my niece, her name is Melody and she was born October 21, 2011. I have gotten to Skype with her and my sister, but it just isn't the same without holding her in my arms.
Not to mention with going home, i have never felt more loved. Like i have always known I am loved, but with everyone who wants to see me and such, its a nice reminder of how amazingly lucky I am to have so many great people back home who want to see me.
Not to mention, there's a guy, it may not be anything, I don't know. i haven't actually seen him since May, when we graduated. But we basically spent everyday together last year and now we are texting a bunch and I have kind of always had feelings for him, its just...I don't know... absence makes the heart grow fonder? Something like that i guess. But either way, i am super excited to see him, its gonna be pretty great.
Then of course my friends. There are three freshman, well they were freshman, now their sophomores, but they all want to see me, which I am sooo excited for because I love all three of them. Plus my two best friends Kelsey and Savannah. I mean sure, I have made new friends here, but none of them can quite compare to Kelsey and Savannah. i wish Jacquelyn was gonna be with us too, but no such luck, although I miss her a bunch too.
Which I think is a good place to stop for this post. I am going to try and post as much as possible. So yea...Thanks for reading, you guys are amazing and Have a fantastic day!
-Crysta
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